I know its a bad idea, but after being severely depressed for 6 months, the short spurt of mania/hypo was so exhilarating, now I started taking it again and I can feel myself slipping back into a depression again, I'm tired of taking meds that don't seem to work anyway, I don't know if my baseline is meant to be depressed but I just can't live like that, even just for one more day. My life is spiraling out of control anyway, might as well do so with a bang I suppose.Also I'm much more angry and irritable when depressed and I'm tired of being angry as well.