I get it, the angry depressed thing. I'm so sick of myself like that. But I keep tweaking the meds. I don't give up. Neither should you. There's got to be a med cocktail that will work. Forget about the one that's making you depressed-that doesn't work. Try something else. I know it's awful to have to change. It's hard on the body, Everything goes sideways like. What the hell else is there left to do. This illness doesn't go away. I'm living proof of that. Just gotta put one foot in front of the other and keep trudging. Not a glamourous post, but a true one.