I think I know that feeling, objectclient, at least something like it.

I was traumatized, demeaned by the therapist in a group therapy IOP aftercare about 7 years ago. I didn't exactly know what that kind of trauma was before then (guess I may have felt it as a child but that was in the long, cut-off, distant past)-- didn't even understand that being demeaned in public WAS something to feel traumatized about because I'd been a goody-two-shoes most of my late childhood and adulthood. It was awful. I felt I needed the therapy, felt I was "right" and he was in the wrong and there was nothing I could do about it. Eventually I got so mentally ill from it that I had to go back into IOP and then he didn't want to take me back into the group! I was stoic. Emotions turned off. He complained again about something I did when trying to "be myself" and express something that I usually kept turned off and was just barely aware of it at the time. I told him, OK, I could keep that part turned off and went back. Until he shamed another member of the group and I announced I was leaving.

It's really, truly awful what that kind of therapy abuse can be like.

Hope you're getting some good help now.