My current T used to tell me I'm "in my head" all the time, that I was intellectualizing, not expressing feelings. I had been like that with my previous 4 Ts, never feeling much in my sessions. I always wanted to feel something IN the session, not afterwards.

I never cried in therapy, not in all my 20 or so years of it. I have come close with this T. Tears form but they don't come down and I find that so frustrating because as soon as I leave the session, I can cry profusely! I hold back and can't help it.

I can, however, show anger in my sessions. I raise my voice and T will comment that she sees that I'm angry. I also show fear (T tells me I'm holding my breath) and I can't help showing embarrassment because I blush.

T says she can tell when I'm excited and happy too.

After reading this post, I realize I now do experience emotions in therapy, except for sadness. I want to cry with my T but I can't.