I feel like I am at a crossroads were they're are so many choices I can make but none of them are fitting perfectly. I wanted to be a tattoo artist I was sure that was what I wanted it doesn't seem a perfect fit. been viewing everything as if I am an observer of my life but that's not enough to know everything. It seems the demand is that I take my time with my life and hopefully the universe will guide me there's no point fighting my confusion I have to wait till I have all the information. The unfortunate thing is I am not someone that waits until I know the facts I am highly emotional and I want everything to be like it is in my head. unfortunately life doesn't quite work that way it will never be exactly how I pictured it because maybe what I think I can do and end up doing could be two different things. the thing I think I can do could be my limitation stopping me from what I am r daeally capable and end up doing. There really is no point talking to anyone as I really don't have any facts on my own life so it's pretty much like a massive confusion and the others become frustrated. I am the one who now has to distance myself from others so I can actually listen to that voice in my heart without any distractions. which was the last thing I wanted to do because the last thing I wanted was to feel my emotions because I know how much they damaged me the last time. we all know how that made me confront others and jump the gun when I again interpreted it wrong. My mother tells me don't let others treat you like defend yourself that is what I have been doing but now that is wrong too. I guess the only way is to walk away from everyone and everything. and come back to it all later.