I've been having a really hard time with depression/anxiety. I isolated for a couple months, but then this week I was really losing it and having thoughts of drinking and suicide, so I thought I better reach out to my support system and let them know I'm struggling. I received brief responses from friends that did not seem genuine, and no response at all from an online recovery support group I've been with for 19 months.

I'm feeling abandoned and rejected. I feel hopeless and like no one wants me. I'm trying to be objective and find a way to fix this or view it from a different perspective. But I really feel like no one wants to deal with me. I hate that I'm like this, and I want to tell them that I understand because don't like me either and I too wish I would just go away. But I'm also resentful.