I was unloved by my father, only because he was lost in his own MI and died. I am loved by my mother, who is pretty darn narcissistic (would never see a doctor). Even though she loves me, if I disappoint her, she will disown me and never speak to me again. Now that she's 80, I think we've finally gotten past that by me just ignoring her wrath and acting like she isn't mad and she will drop it eventually.

And my h is pretty narcissistic and has put me through hell to the point of now I have PTSD over having sex.

Yes, I relate.