Thanks Raspberrytorte.

I hate being like this (Depressed, Suicidal, Lonely, Isolated, Guilty, Anxious, Worthless and unloved) all the time! It`s like being on a roller-coaster that never stop`s!! And I hate Christmas as I know it is coming up to my brother`s anniversary (2nd January) a few week`s before I go into hide and lock the door mode! I don`t want to see or talk to anybody! I don`t eat, which make`s me even worse! I JUST WANT TO DIE!!!!!!
`BUT` after that month has passed, something might distract me like: My mate saying to me "Do you feel like going fishing" After a few day`s digesting what he said, I make this like a goal and then it just seem`s to perk me up a bit. (Strange I know!!)

Can anybody relate too this?