and it's really bothering me. I love her to death... she's my favorite by far, but I did it none the less. She asked me if I'd gone on any spending or sexual binges, and I said no. The new laptop that I'm renting didn't really seem like that big of a deal since I'm making payments for the next year and I need it. But I did cheat on my boyfriend when I was pretty flipping manic... I did have enough of my wits about me to do it safely... I haven't told the BF, either. I think I'll feel better when I see her next week in group and fess up. I've been all over the map here lately... went off my meds because without insurance like I was for a month, it was have a place to live or have my meds.