So fuming right now tidied of people thinking that just because I'm a constant fail at suicide doesn't mean I want to live anymore than I have since I was 15.but some people seem to think I'm just bored or doing it for attention.My casemanangers said I should go to crisis center instead of going to the er for doing something. Why would I do that if I really don't want to live and am only in the er because I always start getting afraid at the last minute and seek help out. Everyone also says I have a choice in all this,I mean therapy,but I don't really. My mom told me I'll get cut off disability if I don't go to therapy. That means medical as well.we have no real money in my family to afford doctors.I don't know about you I'd rather not have to suffer medically mentally I can handle a migraine in my opinion is much worse than depression.I'd rather deal with it with meds.in short can't lose my health insurance can't stop going to therapy.but I don't really feel like life is worth it.I just wish someone understood.