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Originally Posted by passionfruit3
So fuming right now tidied of people thinking that just because I'm a constant fail at suicide doesn't mean I want to live anymore than I have since I was 15.but some people seem to think I'm just bored or doing it for attention.My casemanangers said I should go to crisis center instead of going to the er for doing something. Why would I do that if I really don't want to live and am only in the er because I always start getting afraid at the last minute and seek help out. Everyone also says I have a choice in all this,I mean therapy,but I don't really. My mom told me I'll get cut off disability if I don't go to therapy. That means medical as well.we have no real money in my family to afford doctors.I don't know about you I'd rather not have to suffer medically mentally I can handle a migraine in my opinion is much worse than depression.I'd rather deal with it with meds.in short can't lose my health insurance can't stop going to therapy.but I don't really feel like life is worth it.I just wish someone understood.
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Hi
You know I once was in a similar situation. Not saying what I experienced was exactly like yours but I ran out of acceptable options for me. And tried to kill myself and would have succeeded if someone close to me had not called it in. I ended up spending 6 days in a psych ward. I am was not happy at first my gf called it in but it was what happened... when I got out the options still sucked but the saturation had gone away and I did not feel like a trapped animal.
I grew up with a parent who had migraines and was always sick with them and suffered a lot. I do know how debilitating they can be.
Life is hard, and there are few little moments, brief and fleeting... that make life worth trying again hour by hour, day by day. and when can find them, hold onto those moments...
This is a very hard process to find a life worth living. But you all ready know that.