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Originally Posted by amandalouise
before I was integrated yes my alters had friends but no the friends did not know they were alters. my alters didnt know they were alters. they didnt walk up to people hi Im rainy Im an alter inside amanda. they functioned just like any other human being. when I was in elementary school and high school, they went to school they did my homework they did what ever their sense of agency was. no one in school knew I had DID, I didnt even know back then I had DID. I just thought wow do I have lots of friends. how did I become friends with that person anyway, I dont like them, and I had friends walk up to me saying I liked you better when you were fun, other comments that showed I was different one day and not the next.
I was diagnosed DID as an adult in college and by this time I often wondered why this or that person would be friendly to me and they would be calling me by a different name, but again when my alters were in control and they looked and sounded like who ever they were they did not walk up to people introducing their self as hi Im thelma an alter inside amanda. they introduced their self like any other human being would by saying hi Im thelma.
the only time someone knew I had alters was when I chose to tell someone, mainly my family and my now wife. that I have DID. but even then the alters did not introduce their self as an alter. they functioned just like anyone else did.
I do have friends that have DID and they know I had DID too so of course they knew I had alters but again my alters did not introduce their self as hi Im Rainy and Im an alter. my friends and I did not purposely trigger each other for the purpose of alters coming out to talk with alters. we took great care in taking care of ourselves and noticing if we were getting triggered and if so we ended the conversations, activities to re ground ourselves. but on the rare occasions an alter would take control but again they did not say to the friend hi Im thelma I just took control. things just went on like normal people do things.
even now that I am integrated many of my friends made before integration do not know they were dealing with an alter.
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Yeah I don't mean anything like what you said. when we were at school we had different ones who would hang out with there own groups of people like we had me who hung out with the naughty kids and e who hung out with the nerdy kids and p who hung out with the kids who was hurting. But I don't mean back then. I mean once you know about system and stuff and meet others who have a system too and then share about different things , like you know normal people do when they find other people like them and have something in common. You know, just normal stuff. So you can be real and normal and allowed and not some awful secret!