I've really hesitated to write this post but I need to write it out and this seems to be the best place...

When I am me, I love my T and want to keep her safe at all costs...But...one of my alters hates my T with a passion and she has made a threat against my T (my T has been told by a friend of mine) and my alter will not allow me to talk, email and at times even think about my T or she said she would carry out the threat...The only way to keep my T safe is by me terminating the therapy, this is what the alter wants...Its breaking my heart to terminate but its the only way I know to keep T safe...Once its terminated than the threat is gone...My T doesn't want me to terminate, she wants to work with me more than ever....Tuesday I have to terminate to keep her safe and I am falling into a deep depression because of it....I don't know why I am telling everyone here this....and if anyone is upset by it I apologise....FP