I have self-doubt too since my mania w/psychosis. I feel like I can't trust myself. And if I feel good and confident in myself for a day or a few days, is it mania creeping back? My husband fears this and when I get like that, he has me take my meds and go to sleep. It is like I have to be flat anymore. I cant cry or be mad either. Or at least that's how it feels. I know he wants me to be healthy and pull myself past it, but that is just not the reality of the situation at this time. When someone calls me on a mistake at work, it can be like the end of the world for me. I cry in front of everyone out of embarrassment and anger. I hate it because I feel like other people could see it as me trying to get attention or manipulate people into feeling sorry for me. But it is an instant reaction, as hard as I try to hold in the tears.