My self doubt has become pathological, and I have a set of learned behaviors that work against me as a result. Almost all of the time I do not assert myself, thinking that other peoples opinions are what matters. I play up to people and what they feel and think. Sometimes I feel like I am walking on eggs to keep other people happy. My daughter is an example. I let others take advantage of me instead of speaking up. It is as though I am not worth standing up for. My neighbor is an example here who is taking advantage of me financially. I let situations with people okay out in my head, finding myself attempting to justify my feelings and behavior, when it obviously is the other person who has the problem. I feel like I am trying to live in a small box. I wish I could behave assertively and guilt free.

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