Thank u all for your kind responses. I tried changing the times on the medications it takes awhile to feel any change so it's going on a about 5 weeks. I think with what I have been through and what I'm going thruogh It's my soul crying out different emotions they are mixed because I can be grooming my dog and thankful for Cooper and here it comes this feeling and I'm glad my exto be wife is no longer here and then get angry at what she has done and is doing...She took control of the last ten years of my life and I didn't even realise it until my cbt figured it out. I was there because I lost a good job in 2008 I was there 18 yrs My dad also died that year I had 2 jobs in 24 yrs and 15 in the last seven years. It turns out that my exto be is a real passive aggressive narcsist. When I became disabled in sept of 2015 she filed the divorce and left me YES excactly what they do when your down stomp on u and the fog is clearing I look back and it's like I had a spell cast upon me.I have no feeling other than that no desire, wants, needs I sit in a dark room with my eyes closed. eyesclosed no medicine can reach your soul