Looking for help interpreting this dream I had a few nights ago:
It like started in this weird like old hotel thing, i remmeber the walls inside and even some of the outside was white...the building was apparently in chicago but it was like a maybe 20 min ride from my house to get to it. I started in the hotel, just kinda wandering around. The dream i had before that one i was like aware that i was dreaming and it was in the same place, so i recognized it, but didnt 100% realize i was dreaming. Then like this guy walked by but he had like 2 women with him...idk this part i dont remember the visual, but i remember just talking to an older lady about like wanting to be with this guy, he was older, and like...the other girl that was with him was like his. Like, ugh i hate that theres no other way to put it other than like his property. She was an object to him. I somehow could tell the second i saw them. And i talked to the older lady about like wanting to be the same as the other girl...and she said i had to try out and do stuff, then it would probably happen but i dont remember any of that part, i was just suddenly his.. But i was still with my boyfriend, so it was weird, like i just told him i had another job. I remember like going to the guys place once or twice, and for the most part he was nice but he just had this air about him and its that air that i just cant shake off. I cant find the words to describe it, but i just felt...empty. Like, didnt care what happened, i dont even think i was getting paid for it or anything, i just let this happen. After being there once or twice i brought my boyfriend and told him about it and he was a little concerned and like wanted to come with me there so he could talk to the guy and try to like be a part of it. He did and the guy had hesitations but he said yes. I only remember seeing his face once, mostly it was just listening to him and like communication over phone, like text. But any time i was in front of him or near him, i would just keep my eyes on the ground. It was just....weird, idk its been bothering me randomly during the day, when i woke up i just like i felt....used for lack of better word. Like nothing i knew was actually real, like that was my entire life...that was my way of thinking.

Some things to know about me:
I have never been abused, to my knowledge, sexually or phyisically. I used to be emotionally bullied by some friends I have now stopped talking to. I have thought about being...in that situation in the dream before, but never really thought in depth about it, and when I do think about it, I don't get any pleasure from it. I more just feel like it would be something I deserve. I look down on myself a lot, almost constantly.

Not sure what other information I should put, so any questions you have, ask away!