I hope the Pristiq helps! I'm baffled though about your pdoc being so sure you will be depressed, just because that could potentially turn into a self-fulfilling prophecy, so I really don't get that.

But you need to get back to truly living and I so hope this change will help that. And please don't feel embarrassed by sharing how you've felt, that's what this forum is for; people don't and won't judge you for it.