I've been floating from thread to thread and one PC topic to the next. This week with T away I find myself in random chaotic and sometimes down right crazy thought. This is what happens when I allow my brain to be side-tracked and avoid the pile of work on my desk.

Today I want to know WHAT IS MY DIAGNOSIS? The fact that my neurologist asked me this during an appointment 2 weeks ago and all I could answer was, “I don’t know!” is bugging me today. I was there seeking ADHD meds and he was completing a routine medical history Q&A. I reported that my psychologist had noticed some of the ADHD symptoms and recommended that I try some medication. She can't Rx so she recommended I see my GP, who said he had no idea about ADHD and he had in turn referred me to him. The neurologist then wanted to know more about why I was seeing a psychologist and what her diagnosis was. I was a bit upset at his intrusions into my therapy but answered simply and honestly that I had no idea what her diagnosis was. I had never asked and she had never told me. He was a bit confused by my response but decided to let it go.

Today I want to know what my diagnosis is. I want to know if she thinks I really have a real pathology or if I am just imagining I have one. I'm not a expert in this area of health care and I know how hard it is to self diagnosis. I tore my ACL a while back, I knew what I had done, I had all of the symptoms, but didn't really believe I had actually done it until I finally decided that I had better go to the Ortho and get am MRI a month later.

I can't help wondering today what is my mental problem? Am I a person suffering from depression, general anxiety disorder, ADHD, an abuse survivor, adult-child of an alcoholic, or simply a self-centered brat who doesn’t like her life responsibilities that much at the moment?
Should I really care what I am?Does it really matter?