Hi from afar it looks like u do to people what was done too u. Did u walk back home 30 miles. I'm the opposite of u if someone likes me I will do anything for them and they usually take advantage of me and then leave.you go out of your way so they won't like u. Ithink I learned this growing up catering to my drunk dad so he wouldn't tell me how bad I was but he told me that anyway. I think it's a learned behavoir were u allowed to express your feelings when u were young.