oh yeah, i read about the universe sending messages and stuff too.. i actually read a pretty wide variety of subjects

you didn't say anything wrong, im just having a hard time focusing

there were a few years where a guy leading a group of people would talk to me, we had a purpose, a meaning, but i dont really wanna talk about it... it wasn't really sinister, but just far out there i guess... it had a lot to do with spiritual awakening and synchronization and stuff like that..

its no big deal, i guess when you are so lost outsiders try to pick you up...

im just struggling.. feels like time is running out... the final conclusion, the decision, the judgement, that feeling, draws near... i hope that i have done ok.. i guess its scary because i've never had so much momentum before, perhaps...
but i cant stop it now, i need a life, my life, back; can't give up...

time does keep on slippin, that is for sure...
im really starting to get disturbed and disorientated... getting much worse


reminders... reminders everywhere... what would i do with out you reminding me

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sorry.. im really mixed up right now...