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You have no idea how much reading your reply meant to me. You are correct, I should be glad that I have had those jobs offered to me in this economy. It is hard to get employment out there, even though it is the holiday season.

Maybe I'm getting lazy, I don't know. I send my resumes out daily and check the internet zealously. All looking for that salaried job that will pay enough to get by - yet I'm sinking. My car payment is due tomorrow.........and there's no money for them to take.

I just know that my back and legs can't handle two jobs, and the ones that are offered to me, won't work on their own. But I'm hanging in there.

I am also preparing for a hospital stay. My depression and anxiety provoked me buying new blades - the old one was dull. I put in an emergency visit today to my T, my pdoc wasn't in. We talked, but there just isn't the same level of understanding with him.

My legs and back have been better since I've been home. My son is thrilled that "mom" is around. I will just keep trying though - the alternative is not a pleasant thought.

Thank you for your kind, caring words. They made me feel better that people have wanted to hire me - maybe (just maybe) I have some worthwhile talent.