I've also always felt that I don't belong, aren't able to be myself, aren't really being understood. I guess that's part of a personality disorder.

But the thing is, I don't really fit and belong with most everybody. It's not just me, it's THEM.

Atypical, I know what you mean about getting into trouble. I say that, too, about myself. I tend to get myself into situations with people that I just shouldn't have, just should have seen the red flags, just should have stayed away. But I can't stand boredom, which is the alternative. Maybe it's a thirst for excitement. Also PD traits.

I also never thought the trauma I experienced, was what was behind my problems of today, but I am sure they are to a degree.

I think it's a fine idea to have a thread that is practice for saying things you'd like to try IRL and testing people's reactions on here where it's safe.

Go for it.