Be careful what you wish for. That’s what they say isn’t it?

A couple of months ago I saw my pdoc and decided I wouldn’t restart my medication after being off it for about a month. I thought to myself I don’t need help, I can do this by myself. Didn’t see the point in seeing my T anymore, was planning on stopping seeing everyone from the mental health team altogether.

Obviously I wasn’t necessarily thinking clearly. And I didn’t voice any of this. But it has happened anyway. I normally see my T monthly, and the morning of my September appointment I got a phone call to cancel and was told he would be in touch to reschedule. It’s been nearly a month and no word.

My care coordinator left, she had tried to sort out a replacement before her last day but it didn’t happen. She left a month ago and still no replacement as far as I know.

I was also seeing someone else there who was helping me get back into work, get housing and stuff like that. I have called her so many times trying to sort something out and she is never there and never returns my calls. Just given up with her tbh.

So I have no support anymore apparently. I don’t know if I need it or if it helps anyway, but I kind of wish I had someone I could talk to at times. I’m not in crisis but I’m also not ok a lot of the time. And October is never an easy month for me.

I don’t really know what to do. The person I would contact normally left, and the second person is useless. Who do you reach out to when there is no one there?