I know right now as I write this, that I have been having experiences similar to this for a long time. What makes some of these times more distressing to me is that I don't always know or remember that this has been happening, so I think at the time that I'm losing my mind. Last night I got very confused and had a panic attack, some times it is like a switch being flipped off and on and the anxiety peaks each time I come back. I went to ES chat last night and someone talked to me, I don't know who and if you read this then thank you for talking with me I'm sorry I had to leave so fast as I had to run for the bathroom.

I remember yesterday that I lost a moment, and then a man was pushing on my shoulder, I'm guessing I had walked into him or was going to and he steered me around him. I don't know how prolific this is, but I walk into things sometimes every day. I have excellent corrected vision, even better than 20/20. I sometimes walk right into cabinets, door frames, door edges. I always watch where I'm going. Most of this happens at home and i should be able to navigate this house with my eyes closed. I can only assume when it happens that I am losing touch, or coming back from having lost it and my auto pilot navigation of the rooms is disabled momentarily and i run into things.

I said in last nights post that my dash cam was running on the way home, and that I reviewed the video. The dash cam is actually in the glove box of the car, and I haven't recorded driving with it in awhile. There is no way I turned it on, or reviewed video in the truck yesterday, even though I remembered doing it last night. I also remember when I went to bed last night the backs of my hands were scratched up and red like I had put in a 12 hour day working on equipment, but I hadn't. This morning they are not scratched up or red but there are scars everywhere that they were scratched up, like old fully healed from long ago scars.