Aside from loving the song Losing My Religion, over the course of a year I've lost my spiritual center. That song haunts me. Because it describes me precisely. I'm anxious about being spiritual, because in the past I had religious and spiritual delusions due to my psychotic symptoms. What are the risks of that happening again? I've been pagan most of my adult life. I'm trying to simply celebrate the changing of the seasons, to try and develop a spiritual center again. I want to believe in a deity (or several) but I'm nervous about praying and believing I'm hearing responses which could be voices or imagined.

I feel like spirituality, whatever it may be, is really important for the soul and mind. And I want to be spiritual again. I'm just scared. Does anyone else experience this or have advice to give?