I think it was partly my "fault" for looking at my medical records... Full of errors, misrepresentations, etc......,from just one conversation. Ugh.
(I may have been able to have let go of the ... On the surface of it... "Retarded, inane, invalidating etc.. " comments made otherwise)

And - fast forward - the mean t said I only "deserved" .. "Medication and nothing else" because I had not responded enough (in his perception) to his callous and Freudian ministrations

And supposedly I had "paranoid features" yeah right I have good reason not to trust doctors (IRL)

At least I can see through the fog of their lies and failures

But why does it still hurt