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Old Oct 09, 2016, 02:52 PM
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Yes, I experience several different levels in severity of anxiety & different symptoms depending on the cause and so many other factors I can’t even begin to explain it. The easiest to differentiate is the acute full blown panic attack. It occurs usually after a short-term ‘threatening’ event. Doesn’t happen as often, but boy when it does it’s get out of dodge & just kill me now. Then there are the excruciating extended periods of time that can last for weeks, even months, in which the anxiety is extremely heightened, never seems to subside & feels like at any given moment a full blown panic attack could happen & sometimes does. This happens after an event that feels continuously ‘threatening’ or is long-term, such as after my mother died, or problems with a particular sibling. This is what I consider to be almost PTSDish, although it’s never been diagnosed, but it does actually feel like I’m waiting for the next proverbial bomb to drop. I’d rather be dead than go through this again. There are so many other variations after this. What I call ‘baby panic attacks’ feel just like the beginning of a massive panic attack, but either dissipate all on their own for unknown reasons, or I use a couple of techniques I’ve learned & practiced since being here at PC, i.e., slow breathing combined with a little rudimentary CBT self-talk to calm myself down. These occur most often after a sudden bought of feeling ill, especially nausea, or I happen upon Morgan Freeman hosting Mysteries of The Universe & this triggers my phobia of outer space/the universe. There’s also what I call my ‘generalized anxiety,’ which is with me pretty much daily & flares here & there to different degrees, say if I have to leave the house, or I wake up in the middle of the night & can’t fall back asleep, or I’m ruminating.