I am not doing well. I saw my wife yesterday and she was wearing her wedding band and then gave me a hug I mistook this for her wanting to get things rolling towards us being a family again. I was wrong she told me the only reason she did any of that was because there are people in her family that don't know what is going on. I got upset about it and told her that I feel like she does not want to work this out because everytime I want to talk about it she can't talk. I added fuel to the fire that had already started burning out of control. I am going to take a week and get back to basics for myself. I am not going to communicate with her or the kids (that is going to be the hardest part) or any family memebers, I am going to be doing a lot of writing. Also a lot of soul searching. I must find the center of my being and get things fixed so that I can be normal again. I am really struggling, but not as bad as a week ago. I hope that everyone understands why I must do this and they will not be upset with me. May God bless you all. Thank you very much.