I definitely have regrets. I've made a lot of decisions that have resulted in consequences, hardship, and embarrassment. Most of those decisions I've made while manic (both dysphoric/euphoric), and hypomanic. The guilt and realization of all the mistakes always happens when I'm depressed. I've exposed myself to a lot of unhealthy choices where I have put myself in dangerous situations. Also, I have made financial mistakes that I'm recovering from. I fear that I'll always have poor decision making skills, but I'm trying to remain hopeful that once my meds straightened out again after just being through mania that I'll achieve stability some day.
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