Am feeling not so good today yesterday was like the perfect day doing guided visualizations and poetry and being treated at a Korean restaurant now it's all gone to he'll today.my new cavemanager is the worst person the battle.i don't know why they switched me with her she has not been returning calls and I can't even text I am, ad at her for this cause her phone is different than my last casemanagers.i feel so alone been to sick to talk to anyone and still feel down right crummy but my doctor just prescribes use less meds that just make me feel sicker.dont think my mom is giving my psych meds don't know if she can't cause we ran out or is just not because of me but she didn't even give me my sleeping pills yesterday I keep thinking were out and may be forced to wait till November thirth.im just so sick and tired of being sick and tired don't know what to do.suicide is out of the question for the moment. If I go back to that er I'll end up with another hematoma from another security gaurd.life really sucks to pieces if I weren't so sick I'd self harm[emoji20] wish it could go back to yesterday