i feel the same way

and you know what i think...(which i know doesnt mean much)

but deep down i think every girl/woman looks at her peers and judges herself according to them...no matter if they look like a beauty queen or a normal girl just working ....some do know they are pretty.....some are rich enough to buy expensive clothes and ill tell you a secert....i dont make alot of money and most of my clothes came from walmart when i was in high school...but i am going to buy some nice clothes for myself because i can afford it now...and their are nice stores in Cali...unlike PA
i am buying these clothes to make myself feel better about myself...i want to try and finally have something that i never had before.....and the only way i know how to improve myself and make myself feel better is to try and change the outside since i am so insecure on the inside...and in my mind if i make myself look beautiful and powerful on the outside nobody will try and hurt me or take advantage of me on the inside...

just my thoughts