thank you all...

its the religious delusions that are so triggering to me...
well, one of the things atleast.... maybe its good for him to study the bible, but...
when do these things turn into grandiosity..? delusions...? when does the psychotic break happen....? paranoid delusions....

im not religious anymore so its one of them things i dont like talk about and he all he wants do is talk about it and why its what i need....

so insulting.... because people think i haven't tried that route....?
im not even going into that...

not here now... but has been coming and going, no one cares about my pain i think.... night mares, flashbacks, whatever... the amnesia...? yay....

therapist said it would not be a bad thing to go to hospital....

i just scared to.... i dont want to be locked away....

scared what they would do to me... i dont know if medicine can help