My illness has made me lose my job, unable to work and with no money. When I'm manic I have so many ideas of projects I want to start, but I am so untalented at everything I never am able to sate this urge to create. When I'm depressed I feel so bored, just an intense boredom because my life feels so meaningless. All I have to do with my day is watch tv, it's just so dull and boring. It makes my urge to spend so much worse. Does anyone else experience this boredom with bipolar? It's so difficult to explain