I am fortunate to have good health insurance for my PTSD so I get to see a therapist 3x a month and discuss these things with her , however that is only one hour a week.

I lost one friend over a relationship last year.

My ex is trying to get back together with me. I divorced him because of his refusal to treat his mental illness and substance abuse so I have to really stand my ground with him.

As I am not currently morally or legally obligated to a man I'm quite sure I don't want to repeat that experience.