I am so sorry to hear you are dealing with this. My situation has some similarities. Fortunately, my husband doesn't have schizophrenia, but he's been battling severe anxiety and work stress for the last year, and I think he is back on the verge of having major panic attacks like he had last year. He currently doesn't want to go back to the psychiatrist, although he probably should.

Unfortuntely, when he gets like that, he picks fights with me over stupid stuff, which then stresses me out. When that happened last year, it was awful. I don't want to deal with a repeat.

I am also an expat. Although I speak the language and it sounds like I am more integrated than you, it can be isolating at times. I quit my job in April and haven't been able to find anything else, which makes me feel more isolated and dependent.

I don't discuss these things with my family either, they live far away and we won't have the greatest relationship as it is. My mother would just make me feel worse about things.

Would you be able to find an English-speaking therapist for yourself? I wish I had more advice. I am still trying to figure things out for myself right now, but I wanted to let you know you're not alone.