I'm not sure where to post this.

I'm sad that i'm living in a fantasy world in my head because i'm unfulfilled IRL.

My relationship with my h is in marital therapy, trying to find some way to stay together and keep our sanity. It's hellish.

I wish i were with someone else, somewhere else. So i pretend and have isolated myself pretty much.

IDK if i have any illness or disorder or if i'm just really unhappy and this is my way of coping.

Sad and pathetic, but the healthiest option i can think of.