Hi all!
So I'm new here, haven't been diagnosed but I study psychology and am pretty certain I am bipolar 2, or cyclothymic, probably been for the past like 8 years. I keep on starting things, having a great amount of energy, feeling positive about my future, super social and productive, and then eventually I get super overwelmed and depressed and just can't cope anymore and usually end up leaving everything behind ( relationships, uni, work...) and like, move to a different country, since this has always pushed me back in a happy hypomanic state. Needless to stay this is not going to work in the long run! I keep on ruining my life and then starting over. I just don't know how I will ever be able to say, have a career, a marriage, children, and so on, when I will always fall back in depression and need to escape? :P

And also, when I am hypomanic I just feel awesome and the way I think I'm intended to feel, and all the other time I feel bad for not being able to live up to this image of myself.
My question for discussion is how you guys maintain a stable image of who you are? If you do? Someone just told me that I should see myself as being somewhere in between both stages, however I'm usually not there so I don't know how that would feel? Looking forward to thoughts on this!