First let me say, you will get better, it's just everyone grieves differently. I was in a similar type marriage. We fought a lot and were never really happy with things then she surprised me with a separation suddenly which cost me my home and time with my children. We got back together and things were never the same and would more than likely never be the same for you. We tried to reconcile so I came back but the next 7 years were spent in a loveless marriage. I would never trade the time I got with my children but it wasn't worth giving away seven years of happiness.

In my life, I have found that in most relationships I ever had, one partner loves the other, more. Meaning, you love them more than they love you in return or vice versa. In this instance, it seems you love your wife more than she loves you in return which is hard. I've been on both sides. Usually when you love more than you get in return it makes you feel the way you do. Sad, depressed, questioning why, what can I do better.

Let me tell you, it won't get better in most cases and you will be driven to act crazy and do irrational things that you will regret and feel, pushed her farther away, blaming yourself. Grieve, cry but surround yourself with good friends that care about you. Make yourself do things, go join a gym and get in the best shape of your life. Eventually you will get over the emotional scaring but let me tell you, you do scar and it becomes harder to open up to someone and you become guarded. These are all natural things.

I have met my soul mate and you will too. When you find that one person that loves you equally, then you will know what true love and happiness feels like. I have but I gave away seven years before I too, decided to move on and now I'm the happiest I've ever been.