PS I would like to challenge your statement that nobody gives a ****..

This can be a very hard, cruel world

Many of us here have "grown up" with abusive parents, physical, sexual, psychological abusers..

I do believe there is at least one person out there who could genuinely care for you...even possibly some of us here if you decide to stick around...

I personally am VERY familiar with the wish NOT to be on this planet, as many here are...

Many people here have found that supporting, and caring for others (yes "even just" online) can make a positive difference in their lives,

I wish you comfort and peace