you can still make up for any wasted years, theres so much life has to offer. You know i had this friend back when i was living in canada, his mother in law was trapped in kind of similar situation like yours. One day she decided, no more and she came to india to travel and fell in love with it. so much so that she lives here permanently. she lives in this beautiful hill station. Only goes back home to collect her pension and disability checks. it isnt a lot money either. But the great thing about india is 1 dollar can buy you meals for a whole day, 100 bucks will get you a good furnished apartment to rent. I'm not saying you should do the same, coz everyone's different. but the moral of this story is she found a way out of her dissatisfied life. so can you. Theres always a way.