I was a kid who got tasked to do things I knew others kids didn't have to do. I was my parents alarm and nurse when they were hung over, I managed to always screw that up. I was in charge of my sister while they did their thing. I still feel more like her parent than her older sibling. Yet, I failed at that all of the time and I still do. The house was damaged, or the car, I fixed it or at least helped, even then I didn't do a good job. I had to be there and pull my mom out of the way of a moving car; I still always keep an eye on her in fear that she'll make another attempt. When my dad would have any issues during the day, it was my job to listen and be the "verbal punching bag" until he felt better. I was to graduate high school, which is conventionally normal, and I couldn't even do that. I'm suppose to keep a job, can't seem to do that, either. At the very least, I'm suppose to keep my **** together for or at least in front of people. I'm failing at that, too.
It's what I do, I guess. I fail everyone and everything. I let down people I love and wonder why I'm not good enough. It's because I'm not. I'm not good, I'm not successful, I'm not even able to make average. I'm a failure.