Well, with momma and I, I finally had enough of her controlling, manipulative, narcissistic ways!! So finally, just couldn't take her any longer, and knowing it really wasn't me to deal with it this long, I blew up!!! What I said I will not repeat here, though it's certainly not criminal or anything remotely close. But suffice it to say that if she didn't know I'm not her son, well she knows now!!!! For sure! I called her, identified myself (I know I really didn't have to ID myself but did that to insure she would have absolutely no mistake in who I was), and proceeded to put her butt on fire!
Now of course this would, might have, an impact on him and I. I considered that but figured that my sanity was more important than him and I. Maybe, no evidently, he took her stuff. But not me! I didn't have to, but with my temperament I doubt I would have if I was in the family.
I'm sure she called and told him what I said. I don't know. He did text me with "what a terrible thing to say." Yet I dont really think it was about what I said to momma because right beneath thes terrible thing words, he said "it isn't true." And for me to pray to God to help me with my thoughts. So that might have been about something else I said to him via text.But I'm not even gonna worry about it. Whatever he was referring to I let it drop because I said a couple of things as I saw things. It's up to him to be more specific, not for me to try and figure out.
My girlfriend though is of the mind that now that I stood up to her, something he hasn't done, with momma trying to make him choose between us, maybe now he'll get off that tight rope he's been walking on. I don't know.
But one thing I do know and it is this: no one, absolutely no one will treat me less than I expect!!!! Not even the mother of a significant other. She knows now that, while I'm not trying to brag on myself, the fact remains that I am a force to be dealt with...especially when you think you got my back up against the wall!!!!!!
I haven't always been this way. Growing up I took a whole of stuff from people, including those in my own family. It would make me succumb to tears and depression you wouldn't, couldnt imagine. While some people might have low self-esteem, my self esteem was the lowest on the totem pole. It took a couple of suicide attempts, therapy with medication to put me where I am today. Oh don't get me wrong now. Im still not where I want to be, and honestly? I strongly doubt I ever will be where I want to be. But I'm trying, really trying. With a very fine, adept therapist, and medication I'm progressing. Slowly. Yeah I have setbacks. As a matter of fact, just this week I did. I totally went off on him!! I liken it to a volcano! I didn't go to therapy today because, as I told my laison lady who called yesterday, "I don't see the point." So I didnt. My laison lady called today, we talked, then she said she's going to call me every day to check on me. I said to myself "oh brother." Lol. But it's good. It really is. My therapist called too, left a message and though I didnt call her back, Im almost sure my laison lady did. Sooo, I will continue my therapy.