Oh my.....I went to therapy from Aug 2012-July 2013 just to "try" to deal with the question of why me? Right when I "thought" I laid it to rest my racing thoughts center on that question.When I'm going through mixed my mind brings it all back. I start to wonder what will be the end result. I question if I have the strength to do this for the long haul. I feel like this is a life sentence. Then I start thinking about everything I lost to the condition. How tired I am of doc apps, meds and dealing with damn insurance companies..worrying about if I'd have the money to buy meds when I had no insurance. I completely understand what your saying.I'm about to start a support group again. You could look for one in your area. Also you could make plans for yourself to have some "me time". I was dealing with mania/mixed earlier....it was terrible. I had my aunt watch my young daughter. Then i went to my pdoc to get a PRN. Now I'm home in the peace and quiet alone. I can breathe again...I'm not angry and crying. I was mad as a junkyard dog