My mom wasn't a very good Mom when I was growing up. She was dealing with a lot of depression and other issues, so of course she wasn't there for me. And when she was there, she was often saying very inappropriate things, which made me feel very uncomfortable and that I could not connect with my mother even though I was desperate to.

So now, its hard for me to let people like me, be they friends or girlfriends. I often assume someone who wants to be my friend soon after I meet them, is Gay. I also very often reject women who show quick interest in me.

Worse of all, I obsessively go after women who clearly reject me, or who give me some attention but who also reject me alot, can't be with me for long periods of time, or who are unjust unhealthy for me.

I have been dating a woman for almost 4 months now. She is very nice to me, cooks for me, spends time with me, loves my cooking. But its very hard for me to deal with someone liking me this way.

What do I do? How do I deal with this? How do I keep myself from rejecting her, and from having tons of anxiety when we hang out?