Ya know, it keeps going. After the fact of not being a little anymore. It matters with everything from that point on. Everything. All the decisions that I've made have been from that point of impact.

I have "aged" by calendar years, but that part of me is still there asking the same questions and feeling the same way as in my post. The defiant "get in my car and get the hell out of here" came a while back, but there is the feeling of still wanting that safe place.

Forgive me. It's late and I am .....

Thank you for hearing me!!