I agree with Lefty. Identity can be and often is fluid. Most people, even neurotypicals go through several life changing events which change the way they see the world. We learn new things and grow everyday. Several years ago I went through a "who am I" phase. Am I the wild crazy person with as much common sense as a drunken 12 year old on crack or the elderly acting lady who sit in her recliner and knits? I decided I'm both. Sometimes my behaviors are driven by illness but it's still me. Everyone has something about themselves they wish they could change. Nobody is perfect after all. In the end, it's up to you to decide who you are. Good luck on your journey....I hope you don't have bipolar, but if your doctor feels it fits, do your best to stay strong and focus on the best treatment plan for you. We will be here to support you and answer any questions you have.