I did the same exact thing in tell all. my doc diagnosed me with bp2 and when nothing was working i finally spilled my guts about everything even though i also have done some questionable things and it will always only remain between me and the doc. I was then graduated to bp1, congrats to me!! but now at least we are on the same page, as far as my husband knowing some stuff i will take it to the grave. i hope you feel better after your next meetin with the doc---Jen