There are so many times I'm on the way over to T's and thinking no way can I share this, I'm too anxious, too sad, I don't want him to see me as a basketcase, (like I see myself) I remember one week a few weeks ago.. I was crying all the way over because week with family of origin really sucked and super hurtful.. I was thinking...oh no.. I can't go in like this, I don't want to start the session all teary and whatever.. I just felt safe as soon as I walked through the door and let out everything and more and he super came through, and I felt like 10,000 tons lifted by end of session, gave me a lot to carry through my week . Because I have defective/shame schema.. I really think how can my T even stand me.. but he is always compassionate.. and super helpful..