Yes, as messed us as i am i DO have it more together than them!

They are both abusive. Just abusive relationships i navigate.

Does anyone else feel like that?

I have known some really nice, normal friends. I tend to not open up as much to them and keep a distance from them. Because 'normal' bores me and i feel too weird for them.

Then i have toxic, abusive relationships i tend to get closest to, but need to navigate or i fall into it with them.